只緣身在此山中

我從來沒有去研究過音樂劇，但音樂劇看起來一直影響我很大，講起我什麼時候開始聽音樂劇，那肯定是 1973 年的 Jesus Christ Superstar 萬世巨星，在那個年代，我們長大都是聽余光的熱門音樂，有一次，他介紹萬世巨星，我很小，我還記得是彼得在競技場的那段，只聽一次就愛的半死，然後求哥哥姐姐帶我去看電影。就那個時候開始，音樂劇居然是我買的來收藏的重點，也是我家流失VCD DVD 最多的，都被人借去有去無回。

Jesus Christ Superstar VCD 也是有去無回，不過不要緊，有機會我會去買 DVD ，回到音樂劇，我並沒有深入研究音樂劇，通常都是因為好聽就聽了，大概也是因為如此，我一直都很喜歡電影配樂，因為開始看萬世巨星時，我不曉得那個東西叫做音樂劇，而電影只不過是附加產物，我一直以為我在看電影，電影裡有歌舞劇，不過像西城故事，窈窕淑女，我愛紅娘，學生王子，他們其實全都是音樂劇，一直到最近的鐘樓怪人，羅密歐與茱麗葉.....沒想到音樂劇電影，也陪了我一輩子。

講到音樂劇，不得不提及安德魯韋伯，他不僅在我學生時代影響我，現在他的歌劇魅影，也是我兒子的最愛，我最喜歡他兩個作品，一個就是萬世巨星，一個是阿根廷別為我哭泣。他的作品幾乎都有 DVD ，我喜歡萬世巨星，因為很小就愛上，裡面幾乎每一首歌都愛的半死，但如果講到這戲的代表作品，當然就是 I don't know how to love him 。這首 Mary 唱給耶穌聽的歌。

萬世巨星是韋伯十八歲時的作品，更特別的是，他是戲中戲，就有一個劇圖要表演聖經故事，所以場景是一堆嬉皮，對世界有著理想的六零年代，我覺得那個表覝，即使是三十幾年之後，還是很前衛。

我實在不會介紹音樂劇，所以我把我喜歡的歌，放出來給大家聽，所以首先獻上這首，I don't know how to love him. P.S. Sarah Brightman 是韋伯的前妻，他一手捧紅了莎拉布萊曼，讓她成了音樂劇的代名詞。

I Don't Know How To Love Him @ Sarah Brightman
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I Don't Know How to Love Him
Sarah Brightman

I don't know how to love him,
What to do, how to move him.
I've been changed, yes, really changed.
In these past few days when I've seen myself
I seem like someone else.

I don't know how to take this
I don't see why he moves me.
He's a man, he's just a man.
And I've had so many men before
In very many ways:
He's just one more

Should I bring him down? Should I scream and shout?
Should I speak of love - let my feelings out?
I never thought I'd come to this -
What's it all about?

Don't you think it's rather funny
I should be in this position?
I'm the one who's always been
So calm, so cool, no lover's fool
Running every show
He scares me so.

I never thought I'd come to this -
What's it all about

Yet, if he said he loved me
I'd be lost, I'd be frightened.
I couldn't cope, just couldn't cope.
I'd turn my head, I'd back away,
I wouldn't want to know -
He scares me so.
I want him so.
I love him so.